As I sit in the waiting room. . . Things are looking up.

I'm sitting in the waiting room at a counseling office. Waiting for my first appointment.

I am extremely nervous.

This is the first time I will sit down and talk to a complete stranger about the things in my mind, the things I've been through, and the things I want to do with my life.

Throughout today, I've been reflecting on a few things and I have come to realize that things are looking up. Things are going to start getting better. I have a job that I love. Coworkers and managers that are awesome. I have people I can talk to. People that care and will listen. I sat down with Chris Jones and had an incredible conversation with him today. He was able to give me a new perspective and some hope. I'm about to start my counseling. I have amazing friends that are always there for me. ("Good friends are the people that love you even when you're not very lovable.") I have church leaders that are there for me and are supportive through everything that's happening. I am so lucky to have the people in my life that I do.

I wrote a list today of things I will do:
- I will beat this.
- I will win.
- I will choose happiness.
- I will be free.

The list goes on but those are my top 4. I'll eventually put the whole thing on here. But those are the top 4 for now.

Thank you, my friends, for reading and for always being so incredible.