Trials, drama, and tears. . . Short version: I'm so sorry.

This week has been one of many obstacles. There has been so much happening all at once and it led to one of the worst breakdowns I've had in a long time.

For those who don't know me very well, I deal with anxiety and depression (much like a lot of people my age these days). It has been something in my life for a very long time and I'm coping with it and just learning how to make it through each day at a time.

When there is a lot of drama in my life, my anxiety goes into overdrive, as it were, and I go into freakout mode and try to fix everything. It's just how I am. I don't like seeing my friends get hurt or upset. So I try to fix things.

This week, there was a lot of drama about prom (happening next week). The specifics aren't important but I tried to fix it because a lot of my friends were upset and frustrated by the situation. So, as I do, I went about trying to fix it as best I could for all involved (yes, everyone). The problem is that I ended up hurting a few people's feelings in the process without meaning to. It's actually what I was trying NOT to do.

So that's what this is about. This is a post to apologize.

Megan, I'm sorry I hurt your feelings. You are an incredible friend and I don't know what I'd do without you. You've always been there for me and you're one of the main reasons I was trying so hard to get this prom thing figured out. I just want you to have fun that night and for you to be happy. I didn't go about it the right way and I'm sorry.

Kaytie, I'm sorry for bringing unneeded drama into your life. I know you hate it. And I know I drive you crazy sometimes. . . Okay, a lot of the time. But I'm so grateful to have you in my life and I don't say it nearly enough. Thank you so much.

Marshall, I know I make mistakes. I'm just glad you're there for me through all of them. I'm sorry that this week ha been difficult on you as well and that it was mainly because of me.

Courtney, Scott, and Lucas, life has been hard and I'm sorry for not making it any easier. But thank you for putting up with me, letting me cry on your shoulder (Scott), not ripping my face off (Courtney), and always being supportive through everything (Lucas).

Thank you guys for always being there for me through every bad decision and every mistake I make. I love you guys. You're my heroes and I hope that you can forgive me but I'll understand if you don't.

I love you guys.

- Rachel