I hope you can trust me soon too and realize that I'm not a bad person. I just made bad decisions.
I know why you left. I completely understand. I never questioned that.
You were always adequate to me. I was the one that wasn't adequate for what you wanted. And, no, that's not me hating on myself. It's just how it was. You wanted more and I couldn't give it to you. That's just how it is.
Thank you for not getting mean. I know that you wanted to at times and I know I deserved it at A LOT of those times. But you also know how much it would've destroyed me to have it happen again.
You were never abusive. You only got "abusive" (of sorts) when you said that you wanted me to talk to you and then, when I did, you told me to f*** off. You completely contradicted yourself and then got mad at me for it. But that only happened once. Other than that one time, it's been me abusing myself over you.
We both carry fault in this. And so I'm sorry too. But if you didn't know that already, you haven't been blog-stalking me as much as I thought and I seriously need to find out who all these page views are coming from (something I should probably do anyways).
I know you're probably not ready to be friends yet. But whenever you are, I'm here.
(:
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